Friday, December 22, 2006
mum had leave today. hais. family fight today. i dunno why my mum suddenly start to say out all her bu shuang. den she say till my bro cried. somemore is cried till very loud can. he cried for 30min or so. i dunno why being a guy, he cry more easily den me. maybe he is too emotional. perhaps bahs. or maybe i m used to wat mum said. cos everytime when i m outside or go home late, she will always called n say those things. so now i m used to it. hais. i jus feel disappointment when i my mum was sayin out her bu shuang.
she said that we nv think of her situation while she always think of us. we nv help her at all, when she got leave, she stay at home n serve us, wake up early n cook for us, treat us better den she treat herself. try to satify our needs. den she say WE NV THINK FOR HER. ok, she may say tat to me, but NOT MY BRO can. i know i spent alot of her money, for my sch fees, the stuffs i want (she know i m the type tat wan means wan, no matter wat) n when i go out. but nowadays, i think alot for her le ok. i cut down my expenditure, stay at home more, talk to her more le, n wat she dun like mi to do, i try not to do le. i m trying hard, but she cant feel tat at all. n i dont wan argue with her. argue jus make the situation worse.
back to my bro. she shld not say my bro. cos my bro actually think alot for her too. as my desktop is spolit, n my bro used it more often, he nv even chase my mum to buy new comp lor. n he is waitin for starhub promo so can get a free desktop. he is actually very considerate can. he wan to use but he dun mind waitin, jus to help mum save money. n my modem is kinda sot sot de, n i know tat my bro wanna change a new one, but he again nv say a single thing to my mum can. n my bro did help out mum to do housechord work. he vacuum n help my mum bring down the dried clothes EVERYDAY. n tat day my bro did help mum to do spring cleaning while i go dunno who bdae party. my bro always prefers to stay at home rather den gg out, not becos he has no frien or wat, is tat he dun wan spend too much money. i think mum shld be happy tat she has such a gd son, but she seems to dun apprecitate it at all.
maybe sometime my bro is too harsh in wad he say, but he dun really meant it. maybe my mum dun really understand us much. n perhaps, we dun really understand her too. she say she admit tat tis her life, she had to mo mo de fu chu for the family, she choose it herself. but is there even a choice for mi n bro, we cant choose our life k,we are jus born in tis family. she always say dad give her not enff allowances, nag abt dad, but does she know mi n bro had not enff allowance too? maybe u will be thinkin, wan money go work lah. but u know, not every job we do, my mum like can. she is fussy abt the job we get too. findin a job tat she likes n we like is not easy.
hais, wat she can see is our faults nia. everything we did for her, she jus cant feel. she onli rmb our wrongs. or izzit while in an agrument, wat u can think of is all the wrongs?? doubt so.
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